Fight, Flight or Freedom

I’ve got good news and bad news.  First the bad news  --- we are all in need of inner healing.  Each one of us has wounds in our spirits, large and small, that need healing from the Lord.  The good news is that we have a God who sees us and intimately knows our hearts and knows exactly how to bring healing to those wounds.

Think of Hagar, the servant of Sarah in Genesis16.  You may remember her, the woman who was conscripted to serve as a surrogate mother for Sarah, but when she became pregnant, she got an insufferable attitude, was mistreated by Sarah, and found herself on the run.

The name Hagar means flight.  Taking flight may have been a pattern in her life,  “When the going gets tough, I am outta here!” We aren’t told, but Hagar lived up to her name when she fled into the wilderness.  Maybe she was trying to get back to her homeland of Egypt, or maybe she had no plan at all and just wanted to get out of Sarah’s reach. Maybe she simply overreacted. She made it to a spring of water in the wilderness on the way to Shur.

Hagar, all alone, must have felt desperate.  She was undoubtedly hungry and thirsty, but even more than her physical state, her heart felt mistreated, maligned and wronged.  It may have seemed to her that no one in the world cared about her or even knew where she was.

But how wrong she was.  Someone was looking for her. Genesis 16:7, Now the angel of the Lord found her by a spring of water in the wilderness on the way to Shur. He found her!  He was looking for her!  The angel of the Lord is God Himself in the form of a man.  In one sense the omniscient God knew exactly where Hagar was all along, but in another sense, He went looking for her and found her.  This is profoundly important.  

He asked her where have you come from and where are you going?  The Lord doesn’t ask questions of us to get information, He knows the answer, but He asked this question to get Hagar to focus on her situation, to be honest about her life.  “Hagar, stop and look at your life, what are you doing?”  “I am fleeing from the presence of my mistress Sarai.”  Then the angel of the Lord told her to return to her mistress and submit to her authority.  This will be God’s provision for Hagar and the baby.

Up until that moment, God was someone else’s God to Hagar.  He was the God of her masters Abraham and Sarah.  But now she had a personal encounter with the living God.  She responded to this experience by giving a name to the Lord who had spoken to her, “Thou art the God who sees me, the Hebrew name here is El Roi.  God sees me!  Therefore the well was called Beer Lahai Roi which means the well of the Living One who sees me.

He sees me!

His eye is not just on the important people like Abraham and Sarah, but He sees me too!

Luke 12:6-7 Are not five sparrows sold for two cents?  Yet not one of them is forgotten before God.  Indeed the very hairs of your head are all numbered.  Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.

He has numbered the hairs on your head, and Hagar’s head.  She wasn’t exactly perfect.  She actually brought a lot of her problems on herself.  She could have fallen into deep self-condemnation and self-pity. She could have retreated into victimhood. She probably felt slammed by God when she found herself in the wilderness, pregnant and on the run.  

But God, El Roi went looking for her and found her.  And I believe that in the very instant He met her with the truth that she was sought and seen she knew she was valued.  Hagar learned that she was significant to God; she mattered.  He met that lowly servant girl with His wonderful life-giving truth, He sees me.   Hagar could stop a lifetime of fleeing.

God sees us and intimately knows our hearts and knows exactly how to bring healing to our specific wounds --- large and small.  I invite you to listen to the podcast this week where my friend, Cody Andras*, shares about how the Lord brought his healing to her heart.  She gives us a great example of how a seemingly insignificant event can be the opportunity the enemy of our souls uses to plant a lie in our spirits.  She explains how we can receive the Lord’s truth about these lies through healing prayer and that He cares even about the little things in our lives that shouldn’t be a big deal, but are.

Steps for Healing Prayer

You may try this on your own. If you get “stuck” you may like to have a trusted friend help you “stay” in the memory.  (I have a difficult time staying in the memory!)

1. Can you think of a time recently when you felt disregarded, overlooked or forgotten?  Or is there a recent situation that caused you to feel “stirred up”?  Let yourself feel that way.

2.  Ask the Lord to take you back to maybe the first time you ever felt this same way.  Wait on Him.  See if He brings up a memory.  You don’t have to come up with this, it will just surface in your mind.

3. Go to that memory and let it play out in your mind.

4. Ask the Lord to come into that memory and bring His light, His truth.  Wait on Him as you stay in the memory. See what He wants you to know about that memory.  He doesn’t change the memory, but He may shed more light on it so that you get His perspective.  Wait and see what He wants to do. 

5.  Finish with a prayer of thanks, summarizing what the Lord has done for you through this prayer.

Thank You, Lord that you treat each of us as individuals.  You know exactly how we have been hurt and how to bring your healing to these hurts.  Our job is just to turn to you when we become aware of our wounds and seek your light and truth.  Thank you that your eye is on the sparrow and it is on me!

May Your peace reign in our hearts,


We are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.  II Corinthians 10:5

* Be sure to read some of Cody’s writing at  Her stories touch the heart of the Lord and my heart. You will enjoy reading her blog.

Cody is the daughter of Anne Andras who spoke on the podcast last week.  You can learn more about Anne’s ministry  (Be sure to read about how it started.) Or better yet, go visit Lydia’s House when you are in Brenham, Texas.